因為出演電影《左耳》和《七月與安生》而走紅的馬思純,在拿到金馬影后之後卻並沒有太多讓人印象深刻的好作品。最近,她作為固定嘉賓出演某檔綜藝節目,展示自己的獨居生活狀態,也自曝了很多令人唏噓的經歷。
在最新一期節目中,王大陸和佘詩曼表示很羨慕馬思純的獨居生活。王大陸更是貼心剝好龍蝦,說馬思純太瘦了要多吃一點。馬思純表示自己錄節目3天瘦7斤,但是一旦開始吃藥,就會3天胖8斤。在場的嘉賓都表示很驚訝,馬思純說是控制情緒的藥物,沒有辦法不吃,否則就會身體僵硬、腿軟無法走路、非常無助並且嚴重氣喘,甚至眼睛都會看不見。
馬思純最後還表示,胖和這個比起來,還是胖好一點。剛出道的時候,馬思純性格爽朗,很有靈氣。但是近年來,越來越多的人質疑她的身材管理。去年在坎城走紅毯,因為生圖和精修圖差距很大,甚至還被嘲「年度照騙」「胖若兩人」。
除此之外,馬思純還在節目上表示自己曾經遇到過校園暴力。同學拿球砸自己,她只能默默承受,因為反抗和回應會招來更多欺負。給她喝的可樂裡面灌抹布水、粉筆灰甚至拖把水。老師讓對方道歉的時候,她也只能哭著問,為什麼是我?為什麼要這樣對我?
馬思純坦言,這段經歷是讓她不自信的開端,甚至讓她覺得自己什麼都不是,一直很軟弱。她曾經把這些事告訴父母,但媽媽告訴她,不要理會,你要努力證明你比她過得好。不少看節目的觀眾表示,感覺馬思純的身心狀態都很差,總是跟不上其他嘉賓的節奏,也能感覺到她很容易焦慮緊張。
有一些網友表示心疼馬思純,懷疑她可能有抑鬱和焦慮問題,希望她能快點好起來。
也有人質疑,吃藥這種事情不是應該藏著掖著嗎?在節目上公開這樣說,是不是另有目的?還有人懷疑這是賣慘炒作。
現在大家生活壓力很大,每個人可能或多或少都會有一些心理問題。這些心理問題並不是自己矯情,也不是做作,而是真的會影響我們的身體狀態和日常生活。去看醫生或者吃藥,都是很正常的事情。為什麼吃藥就得藏著掖著?為什麼在公開場合跟別人揭自己的傷疤就要被理解為賣慘?
此前,少女時代隊長金泰妍直播時自曝自己患有抑鬱症,就被指責你都30歲了為什麼不懂事一點?雖然這些年,人們已經在慢慢了解抑鬱症,但是仍然有很多人不清楚這種疾病會給人帶來什麼樣的影響。
Quora上,之前有人提問過,得了抑鬱症是一種什麼樣的感受?這是下面點贊最多的一個回答。@Ellen Vrana
I can't describe what it feels like. But I can tell you what it looks like.
我描述不出來得了抑鬱症是什麼感覺,但我卻知道它的形狀。
There is a lint ball, under our hallway chest, right next to where the lamp is plugged into the wall. It moves slightly from a miniscule breeze I cannot feel. It has a hair in it, long, mine. Hmm, now it moves back under the chest and behind the leg. And then out again. It’s very active, this lint ball.
在我家走廊柜子的下面有一個線球,就在壁燈的右邊。一陣微風吹來,我感覺不到,線球卻開始輕微地移動,上面還有一根我的長髮。線球又回到了柜子的下面,就在桌腿的後面。進進出出,反反覆復,真是一個好動的線球。
Why do I know this? Because I』m lying on the floor. On our 2nd floor landing at the top of the stairs. My head is pressed against the wood floor, my body might be on the carpet, not sure. I didn』t plan to lie here, I just got overwhelmed in sadness and this is where I came.
我怎麼知道這些的呢?因為我就躺在地板上,躺在我家2樓的地板上,樓梯的最上面。我的腦袋貼在木地板上,身體或許在地毯上,我不是很確定。我沒打算躺在這的,只是突然間悲傷一股腦兒的涌了上來,然後我就躺在這了。
All depressions are different, this is what mine looks like.
所有抑鬱都是不同的,這是我抑鬱時的模樣。
To cry. To grieve for nothing and everything. At first images that flash through my head. Images of sadness, other people crying, faces of people I』ve lost.
哭,沒來由的悲傷,什麼都令我難過。一幕幕場景都從腦海里閃過,悲傷的畫面、人們哭泣的畫面、所失之人的臉龐。
Then words come, phrases. I don't see them, I hear them in my head. Things like 「I can』t do this, why am I alone, I don』t have any one to talk to, I cannot do this anymore.」 That kind of thing. I cry them outloud, too.
不斷有字眼出現,我看不到它們,卻能聽到它們在我腦子裡不斷的叫囂。「我做不到,為什麼我這麼孤獨,我找不到人傾訴,我再也受不了了,」諸如此類的聲音不斷迴響在腦海,我只能哭。
Now I』m lying here, on this floor, I』m not looking at anything in particular, and not feeling anything. Just deliriously exhausted, like I』ve been up for days. This is the state I will stay in, empty, just not caring. Days, weeks. I usually drop out of sight, don』t return emails, or see people. I crave alcohol (but don』t have it because that makes it worse). Mostly, I can』t take care of myself. I will exist on croutons and salad dressing because I cannot leave the house. It’s ok, I』m not hungry.
現在我就躺在這塊地板上,眼神渙散、身體麻木、疲憊不堪,像是熬了幾天夜似的。這將是我未來幾天或幾周安身的地方,空虛、冷漠。我經常從人們的視野中消失,不回郵件,不見任何人。我很想酗酒(但我不會,這會讓情況更糟糕)。大多時候我都無法照顧好自己,我以麵包丁和沙拉為食,因為我無法離開屋子。不過沒關係,我不餓。
It could last a day, a few days, or weeks. I』m completely useless, not thinking, not feeling, just breathing and sleeping. But every once in a while I』ll start to feel again, and it quickly overwhelms me, and then I』ll seek out the floor. Or a corner.
這種狀態會持續一天、或幾天,甚至是幾周。什麼也不做,什麼也不想,什麼也感覺不到,活著就剩下呼吸和睡覺,但我總是會回過神來。但是這種抑鬱的狀態會再一次席捲我,然後我就再找一塊地板、一個角落。
I do know, however, that this isn』t my fault. There are chemical imbalances in my brain that overwhelm me with stimulants and what not. Powerful, powerful stuff. It is not rational, I can』t *think* my way out of it. I』d like more than anything not to be crippled by this. But I am. I do something about it, treat it, but sometimes it’s not enough.
但我知道,抑鬱,並不是我的錯。我那化學失衡的大腦用種種強勁濃烈的刺激壓垮我。可這不是「理性」的,我沒有辦法靠自己「想通」。我寧願殘疾都不願再忍受這些。可我依然承受著,我想過辦法,我接受過治療,但這些遠遠不夠。
現在,經常和抑鬱症一起出現的,還有焦慮症。我們可能經常會說我好焦慮啊,我好煩躁,我好緊張啊。可是當它變成一種病症的時候,會是什麼樣呢?什麼情況需要引起重視?以下資料來自美國權威醫學中心梅奧醫學中心(Mayo clinic)。
Experiencing occasional anxiety is a normal part of life. However, people with anxiety disorders frequently have intense, excessive and persistent worry and fear about everyday situations. Often, anxiety disorders involve repeated episodes of sudden feelings of intense anxiety and fear or terror that reach a peak within minutes (panic attacks).
偶爾感到焦慮是生活中很正常的一部分。然而,患有焦慮症的人經常對日常情況有強烈、過度和持續的擔憂和恐懼。通常,焦慮症包括反覆發作的突然襲來的強烈焦慮和害怕或恐懼情緒,並在幾分鐘內達到頂峰(恐慌發作)。
These feelings of anxiety and panic interfere with daily activities, are difficult to control, can last a long time. You may avoid places or situations to prevent these feelings. Symptoms may start during childhood or the teen years and continue into adulthood.
這些焦慮和恐慌的感覺會影響日常活動,難以控制,而且會持續很長時間。為了避免這些感覺,你可能會避開一些地方或場景。症狀可能開始於童年或青少年時期,並持續到成年。
The causes of anxiety disorders aren't fully understood. Life experiences such as traumatic events appear to trigger anxiety disorders in people who are already prone to anxiety. Inherited traits also can be a factor.
焦慮症的原因目前還沒有完全弄清楚。生活經歷,比如創傷性事件,似乎會導致原本就容易焦慮的人出現焦慮症。遺傳特徵也是因素之一。
Examples of anxiety disorders include generalized anxiety disorder, social anxiety disorder (social phobia), specific phobias and separation anxiety disorder. You can have more than one anxiety disorder. Sometimes anxiety results from a medical condition that needs treatment. Whatever form of anxiety you have, treatment can help.
焦慮症的例子包括廣泛性焦慮症、社交焦慮症(社交恐懼症)、特定恐懼症和分離焦慮症。你可能有不止一種焦慮症。有時焦慮是由需要治療的疾病引起的。但無論你有何種形式的焦慮,治療都能有所幫助。
常見的焦慮症狀包括:
- 有緊張、不安或焦慮情緒;
- 感覺自己馬上會遇到危險、恐慌或很倒霉的事情;
- 心率加快;
- 呼吸急促(換氣過度);
- 出汗;
- 震顫發抖;
- 感到虛弱或疲倦;
- 無法集中注意力或思考任何事情;
- 睡不著;
- 腸胃出現問題;
- 控制不住自己的憂慮情緒;
- 有強烈的慾望去避免引起焦慮的事情。
如果有以下情況,可能需要就醫檢查治療。
You feel like you're worrying too much and it's interfering with your work, relationships or other parts of your life.
覺得自己過於擔心,已經影響工作、人際關係或生活的其他方面。
Your fear, worry or anxiety is upsetting to you and difficult to control.
恐懼、擔憂或焦慮讓你心煩意亂,難以控制。
You feel depressed, have trouble with alcohol or drug use, or have other mental health concerns along with anxiety.
感到抑鬱,有酒精或藥物使用的問題,或有其他伴有焦慮情緒的心理健康問題。
You think your anxiety could be linked to a physical health problem.
認為自己的焦慮可能與身體健康問題有關。
You have suicidal thoughts or behaviors — if this is the case, seek emergency treatment immediately.
有自殺的想法或行為,這種情況應該立即接受治療。
希望大家可以多一些善意和理解,也希望每個人都能儘量健康快樂地生活。